What exactly do you mean by dark and repulsive?

>>6466
There is huge variety of very different things that would meet that description. Particualry experiences involving the intersection of death and life, intellect overriding physical brain/body- instinct, etc.

>>6467
Other subject matter involved in these experiences: blasphemy of Abrahamic religions, racism, vague connections to Nazi occultism, anti-NWO messages, multiple hells, parasitic deities, living thought forms, fragmentation of polluted souls, etc.

If you write them I'll read and discuss them. I had almost thought that you wouldn't come back after all this time...

>>6468

I have no objections to any of these subjects, I wouldn't frequent this board if I did.

Saucerianonymous, glad to see you back.
While i only lurked your other threads, starting back on seven, i would like to discuss and most certainly like to hear more.

Also does anybody have one of the earliest threads from 7 (i think second or third) saved. the big ass one that went into auto saging. there was a picture on it that i would really like to see again. I think it was drawn by Saucerianonymous, it was somewhere close to, but urelated to the clive barker discussion.

>>6590

I have the threads saved, but only one of them has images because it's .mht; do you remember what the picture looked like? I may well still have it. Anyway, other threads are at the bottom of this page: http://xenodossiers.wikispaces.com/goet-saucerianmythos

>>6591
Cheers, Very much appreciated.
i was mistaken "This was drawn by a sketch artist investigating a mid 60s event that has some very similar qualities to your story."
For some reason this particular picture (not the other posters story) and `the doctors` really caught my attention.

bump?

Sorry for not being on for a while; my old computer finally died and I've been working on music/art.
If there is enough interest to start a dialogue of some sort I'll post some more on 99, but I'm turned off by septa-phalli for a lot of reasons (to be honest the chans bother me on a lot of different levels; but sense people's opinions are unfiltered they still serve as a very good communications tool). I've now become Misanthropic beyond belief and the majority of my opinions are extremly taboo in the public discourse. I'm horrified by my own generation and know that I am witnessing the collapse of Western Civilization.

I really don't know what kind of reaction my work (which is partially reflective of these paranormal experiences) is going to get. I expect that when the performances/music/films etc are unleashed upon the public I will be viewed as a complete lunatic. As far as the non-paranormal subject matters go; the hippies cannot debate me with facts or statistics so I expect them to threaten me with violence.

I firmly believe that my work represents the ultimate threat to leftwing "counter culture" and the meaningless Hipster contingent of our generation. I've completly discarded any possibility of negro influences from my music and created a breathtakingly intense, superior sound that annihilates anything any hippie/hipster/negro/Communist/Anarchist/whigger could possibly produce even if all their efforts were combined and multipled by thousands. Through that I not only engage the body but the intellect/soul itself and force the listener to react with a maximum visceral high while simultaniously executing the sacred swine that guard their caged souls.

I'm also working with video including explicit erotic material (which I do not consider to be pornography; "porn" as created by Zionist owned companies is an abomination) and through this I attack the groin by creating material that is far more erotic and totally devoid of the hideous neurosis that taints the sexuality of the general public. Considering that according to the Department of Justice statistics on interracial rape their are as many white women raped by negroes every year than were raped in the Rape of Nanking; I declare that anyone who views/produces negroe on white pornography is detestable and an enemy of civilzation itself. Sense any negative criticism of the negroe results in negroes or hippies making "muh dik" references or threatening physical violence; their minds will be blown when I "muh dik" back at them and prove that I'm not an asexual eunuch.

I'm so sick of society, I'm sick of the media, sick of the nanny state, sick of the people, and I've got to the point where I feel as if the entire world should be tossed into the sun.

What's even worse is that I know that I'm right and the public (even the counter culture) is still going to think I'm a maniac; what will your typical hipster/yuppie think of a man who is an abductee, occultist, pornographer, psuedo"Nazi", biker, painter, musician?

I might end up being the most hated man in the world, but at least it's going to be exciting.

>>6604 sorry for the typos "their" for "there" in a couple of places; I'm just very tired.

IIRC you said there was no sort of hierarchy among the entities you have had experiences with.
Yet the graes(?) seem very central to them all. A seemingly strained but present relationship with the blondes/nordics. The small usually hooded beings acting almost like helpers to them at times.
The gristle cenobites taking their leave or atleast being more wary when there are graes around. The grae lady being there to comfort you when you were with "the doctors".
Firstly, i am hoping you could clear up any misunderstandings i have about the above interactions. And would also like to inquire more about the relationships between any of the beings, inclusive or exclusive of the graes.

>>6609
The way I phrased that was over simplified; what I meant was that they (the Graes) don't have a hierarchy based upon the power of specific individuals. They do have a structure that could be viewed as a hierarchy but it is a hierarchy of clusters composed of individuals who do not have hierarchical power alone. The power wielded by each individual is dependent upon/an outgrowth of which cluster they represent. The above is specific to beings who have metaphysical characteristics; the non metaphysical beings have a more (often times blatant) militaristic/political structure.The Graes have multiple clusters within a meta-structure, but work in tangent alongside non-metaphysical beings who have their own personal group configurations. The Graes divide themselves into groups that are based upon the characteristics of the individuals within said group, and the other non metaphysical beings are bound to the cluster of Graes that they most closely resemble.

The exception to this is the Blondes/Nordics who I'm not 100% sure of exactly what they are or represent; I do know certain universal laws they are bound to on a metaphysical level but can't say for sure that they have metaphysical capabilities themselves. Similarly, I'm uncertain of exactly what the small hooded beings actually are; however I can confirm that they are the equivalent of a slave class and seem to be totally devoted to this role. I've also had an inkling that the hooded beings are being punished for something or have repented for some prior deed or thought in such a way that being a servant/slave is better than the fate they would otherwise have. The Graes seem to be very into punishment but rarely into rewards.

I'll go ahead and write as exactly as I can what the Graes are which I had been apprehensive about revealing before now and will post that tomorrow night if I can.

>>6604
I also ought to clarify that I'm not a "white" supremacist and I'm about 50% sure I'm a Melungeon. I'm just extremly Misanthropic.

>>6610
Thanks, that certainly cleared things up with the hooded beings and prehaps shed a little light on the graes.
I am eagerly anticipating the reveal on the graes.

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I would love to hear more Saucerian :-)

I don't think I'm going to write anything else about this stuff. I probably shouldn't have to begin with.

>>6660

Before you stop writing about this stuff could you please tell us why you are stopping?

I think I'm going to have to continue discussing all of this and do so in my public art. Right now I'm so unhappy with the state of the world/humanity that it fills me with agony; when I confront the questions that arise from my experiences and realize the futility of human affairs the anguish intensifies. As asinine and cliche as it might seem I have an oceanic loathing that some catastrophic horror is creeping upon us all. I don't know when this horror is due or all of the specifics of what is going to occur; only that it will be total. My statement of not wanting to write about all of this came about because I am very, very, frightened.

>>6681
It is probably far too late to reason with you, two months is more than enough time to decide to never visit this place again, but I want nothing more than to experience what you speak of. The connections you make are uncanny, and hinting towards living thought forms and Nazi Occultism only further draws me in and suspends my disbelief. My whole idea of paranormalism has been shaped by what you said on septa-phalli so long ago. I cannot contemplate ancient myth without thinking of the beings you described, I cannot wander in the woods without thinking that every creaking tree is the grey lady's door, I cannot listen to ghost stories without wondering if it's not just a doll-taker, I cannot listen to white-supremacy arguments without thinking of the Vril. I have a great many of your illustrations printed as posters in my room, the cat-things were my favorite until I found and fell in love with some of your really grotesque paintings.

I hope I do not seem obsessive, I am just so tantalized by the things you tell us, here.

You have no idea how much this pleased me. I really believed that no one had taken in all I have written and really, truly, been able to fathom what it described.
I've finally been able to put my own interests (separate from the paranormal) into harmony with my need to communicate these experiences (my art is not really "creative" as much as it is a portrayal of things I've observed; paranormal or not). What I'm hoping to do is to put together films with exploitation elements that show human beings in contexts that communicate similar meaning to that of a paranormal experience without being blatantly supernatural. The idea is that if I can interest the viewer with images that resonant on a primordial level ; they will be more apt to respond subconsciously to the very serious implications hidden within.
The Fae/Gray/Grae/Visitors or whatever we want to refer to them as; seemed to be playfully amused by this concept as long as they were never directly portrayed (being portrayed symbolically by an actor/actress is OK).
I want the films to appeal to both men and women while also being beyond graphic and lurid with a grotesque level of melodrama. The concept is to film fairy tales for adults who won't allow themselves to believe in "fairies". Sense most of the techincal work will be done by myself the films should have a far more cohesive vibe/aesthetic than the majority of film work.

Any feedback on this would be greatly appreciated.

>>7171
As for the posts on the chan that shall remain unamed; I thought "these people are so repulsive; if ANYONE needs to read something that might possibly make one consider her/his place in reality- these people do." To be honest the chans scare the HELL out of me.

>>7172

Please tell us everything you can. With your recent absence, I was afraid we would never hear from you again. I'm so relieved to see you responding on the board again.

Your message NEEDS to be heard

>>7293
I'm not sure where to start again. I haven't really gone into explaining who the Doll Lady is and exactly how important to my experiences she is. The Grae Lady has actually acted as a physical/(psychological? spirtual?) emissary of The Doll Lady at certain points; which I had completely misunderstood
for a long time. I should probably go into that as the most recent long encounters I've had centered entirely around her. I've shied away from getting into all of that before because it's quite freakish and depressing at points. I also did some illustrations of the Doll Lady as she now looks (but I'll have to figure out where I put them). So I'll start a thread about that sometime in the next couple of days.

>>7305

Welcome back to the /x/'s, I was JUST thinking about you earlier this week, thinking of putting up a thread trying to rekindle your interest in telling us your stories. I was sitting on my parent's back porch smoking a cigarette, just like I did one time after reading one of your particularly in-depth posts, just trying to wrap my head around the tobacco story.

I hope to hear more of your experiences in any way you can express.

Saucerianonymous is the reason I came back to /x/ after months of not going to 99chan at all. Rare combination of having legit encounters with other lifeforms (as opposed to people pretending to see aliens to make themselves more interesting) and having the intellect to correctly interpret what it is all about.

I'm glad I found another thread on page 3.

Hello Saucerianonymous- and anyone else reading this.

Is there a place where I could read a compilation of your stories and see more of your art? I found a brief compilation of your postings a while back one one of the chans, but despite searching all over the place, could never find them all.

Anyhow, I'm sorry you're having such an unpleasant time among humanity. I understand how you feel, though I highly doubt to the same extent you feel it.

Thank you.

I'm only lurking this board once in a while but this sounds extremely interesting. I would very much like to hear that music or those movies you are making.

>>7738

Seconded

If anybody is willing to listen; I'll post some more. Over the last year I've learned some things that are utterly shocking.

>>6611 Re-clarification; this was posted to attempt to protect my own identity. Some information I have posted has contained flaws in order to not reveal everything about the visitors or myself. To do otherwise would have been seen as treason by them and possibly put myself in danger. I now have a better understanding of what I can and cannot say.
I'm not interested in making anyone believe me or in proving the reality of anything; I'm interested in understanding my own experiences better through the input of others and facilitating the subject(s) on an intellectual level.

I am glad you have returned. I am eager to hear about your new findings.

And please post more art.

>>9005
I'll also post art done by my friend reflective of some of his own experiences which intersect with mine. I'll try to remember everything I ommited or changed in order to "protect myself" as I perceived it and respect the visitors. Again, I'm not trying to prove anything or convince anyone of anything; anyone with enough knowledge of this stuff or who has had interactions with these beings ought to be able to tell I'm sincere. There are things that I'm not in a position of authority to reveal, but can present what ammount to puzzles/maps of information that lead to answers. There is more I don't yet understand that I'm going to need some level of assistance in figuring out. Rather than saying things out right, the visitors seem to present riddles and symbols for us to decode.
I'm much more comfortable with all of this now than I have ever been, but it's like peeling layers of a never ending onion.

Not sure now if I'm going to post anything or not, because I'm not sure where to actually start; unless someone could ask about particular elements and I could go from there.

I am interesting in hearing more about necroplasms, about death, and about consciousness, and especially about how all those relate.

So is the league still going, then?

I was lurking when it was created, but I was too busy raeging at the Syazel thread to book my place...

Also, more on-topic, I must admit I am intrigued as to Saucerian's view of things. Having read into the vril society and the branchings that lead off it, as well as owning a nigh-on first-pressing of The Coming Race, along with my own primarily shamanic/necromantic practices, I feel there may be much here that is relevant to my interests, and I am annoyed at myself for having missed this thread when it first came around...

Saucerianonymous, I hope the server move or the complicated subject matter (death, necroplasms, etc.) hasn't deterred you from coming back here. I have other lighter questions I can ask as well.

Just came back to let everyone (who actually sees this, which is maybe 3 people) that I'm currently making a surrealist film that will contain much of the same subject matter/images I've talked about here. So look out for a (mostly black and white) film (not digital); independent- sometime in the next year and a half or so.

>>9501
I'm super excited for this, keep us informed please.

>>9501
Can we find you anywhere else? I'm just now reading all of this :/