So i was reading Sartre today and hes troubled with the conundrum of nothingness and anguish. But the way he addresses it is in such a way where if i try to envision fear or anguish i cant do it.

I dont know if i even have anguish over things, like vertigo, i suppose death is something i generally have had anguish over, but im finding that i cant make myself afraid of it in the same way that i used to. The closest i can get is like some sick feeling of excitement of the unknown.

and that would be the only way i have anguish, because i dont know how i will act at that point and only by avoiding it and the possibility of its avoidance now is what makes me less afraid than i think i should be....but can that be anguish, is that what it is?