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828 No. 828
okay, i'll try this again.

Dexterous. a word most people would use to describe Olivia, even if they had only very briefly met her.
A deserved description, as her hands never really stopped being in motion.
Her fingers: agile, yet delicate. With them, no task was beyond her grasp.
When she was younger, they guided her to becoming quite deft at musical instruments such as the piano, guitar, and violin.
As she aged, she discontinued her pursuit of musical talents;Her interest didn't necessarily wane as much as shift towards other things.
She was eleven when it occurred, though nobody, not even her, could tell you why.

"I don't know why. It just happened." She'd tell you with a smile that was often known to cause acute amnesia. Mesmerizing, others might describe it as.
The fact of the matter was, talents aside, Olivia was beautiful. Plump, pink lips that were often as expressive as she was.
Large, curious eyes that might come off as looking tired, or perhaps even mischievous, if she wasn't working on something.
In addition, as if those alone weren't enough, she had high cheekbones that further accentuated her smile, and a proud, feminine brow:
the apex of which grew golden brown tresses. Indeed, her hair was long, but on any given day it was balled on top of her head in a messy bun.
The attire she opted to wear on a day to day basis was just as relaxed. T-shirts and jeans, maybe shorts with a longer top when the weather permitted.

If carefree described how she dressed, it went on to describe her school life as well. She had a few friends, but no best friends.
Certainly no enemies. Grades were average, and her favorite class was her one elective. Due to her beauty and talent, people respected her.
A few might even go as far to say that she got special treatment, their eyes wandering down to her waist.
An act not unusual considering the way her body curved, but unique in that they were only focused on the lanyard on her belt loop, holding
an extra copy of the key to the art room.

Her fourth period, and after school were times she might have used that key. Sometimes she even ate her lunch there.
If you were to ask her, she might not admit it, but she viewed most of her school day as a necessary obstacle to get to the art room.
It wasn't solely because she loved art, but because the art room was the only place in the entire building where she could freely use
her medium of choice. When she was "in her zone" she might appear to some as a surgeon. Scalpels and other tools arranged on her left side,
a spray bottle and paper towels on her right. She'd spend hours upon hours working on one piece in front of her. One giant block slowly whittling down
to a tiny sculpture, a figure that looked like it could jump to life any second. Or, another day, a vase that had such incredibly intricate
patterns carved so lovingly and carefully into the base shape. She also did highly realistic portraits, all done in white clay utilizing natural
shadow techniques to make them appear almost like the real thing.

On one such day, a girl she sat next to in math would ask her to make her one of these portraits.
"Well, I've been thinking really hard of like, what to get him for his birthday. I thought, 'It has to be something unique!' Yknow- 'but like, personalized.'
And that's when I thought of you!" And Olivia's mouth did purse in thought. Her eyes looked out the window while the other girl was making her request.
When she was silent, Olivia stopped working the rubber eraser in her hands to run one across the top of her head and pat her bun.

"Alright," Immediately the other girl lit up like a tree in December. "But, I won't be done until the week, and I'm going to need a picture of you before I start."
and went back to the eraser.

"Oh, that's great! I have a picture that Melanie took of me at Justin's party last week that, like, looks /really/ good." Ponytail flip.

"It won't look exactly like the picture you'll give me. I only need it to know, um, how you look, I guess."

"But, like-" Olivia made a mental note to start counting how many more times this girl was going to say that. "/Could/ you maybe make it look like the picture?
'cause, like-" Two. "it does look good. Like," Three. Olivia couldn't help but smirk. "Reaaally good." She said, mimicking Olivia's smirk, though didn't understand why.

"Sure." Was all she had to say for the other girl to embrace her briefly, but tightly. Her eyes widened, as she hadn't expected this response, but it was over before she could
think to reciprocate.

"Oh my god, great! I'll, like-" Four. "Get it to you by the end of today, okay?"

Olivia closed her eyes, smiled, and nodded. "Sounds good." Leaving the other girl to beam, and jet down the hall.
And Olivia went about the rest of her day in a autonomous daze.

When the final bell rang, the door to Olivia's last classroom opened before any of the students inside could make it there first.
It was that redhaired girl with the ponytail that wanted Olivia to make the portrait of her.

"Hey! I got that-" She started, waving at her.

"Excuse me, miss," Her teacher interrupted. "I don't believe I finished with my lesson. Just because the final bell rang, doesn't mean you can
enter a classroom like that."

Having been scolded as such, she stopped and a more solemn expression washed over her. She quietly shut the door, and assumed a neutral position by it, waiting.

"Thank you. Now, as I was saying, I hope you all have a fantastic weekend, and don't forget to do your homework. That's all." She said, smirking and smoothing out her skirt.
Most students got up, having already packed up their things for the day, and left. Olivia only stood up, slinging her bag around one shoulder while Ponytail bounced over to her desk.

"So, like-" One. "yeah, I got that picture for you~" She said, hand groping in her bag. When she seemed to find it, she shamelessly presented it to her.
Olivia's eyes immediately went wide upon seeing it, and attempted to cover it with her arm. The eraser in her hands distracted her from fully obstructing it, however.

"This- You, uh, never said it would be a dirty picture." The embarrassment was apparent even in her hushed tone.

"Whaaat? That's not dirty. See? I'm totally wearing clothes." Was her response, not showing any ounce of subtlety.

"Yeah, a bra and-" Olivia stopped and continued in the tone she had used before. "A bra and underwear." Looked down at the picture she was hiding again for a quick glimpse.
"Sexy bra and underwear."

"Huh? I'm glad you think I'm sexy! Then it's totally perfect, please say you'll use it!" Her eyes went soft, Olivia couldn't help but resist.

"Fine, fine. Just don't spring things like this on me from now on." An attempted air of aloofness floated in the air as she said it.

"Yeah, yeah, that'll be fine. Could you, like, engrave it for me? On the back, I just want- 'Love Jennifer'" She flipped her ponytail.

Olivia repeated the words under her breath. "Yeah, I could do that." Another hug, just as quick as the last.

"Cool! I can't wait to see it finished!" Turning as she finished saying it, she gave a small wave and left.

"Your girlfriend?" Chills ran up Olivia's spine. Her teacher was standing right behind her.
Her first instinct was to hide the picture. She flipped it over, smacking it down on the table leaving her hand on top of the photo as she whirled around.

"What?" Was all that she could find to say. The older woman smirked and repeated herself.

"Was that your girlfriend?"

"What? Her? No! She just, uh-"

"Wanted to give you a dirty picture of herself for no reason?" Olivia paled.

"That was, that's for her boyfriend!"

"Oh. So, you're her boyfriend?" The teacher seemed to be holding back coy laughter. Noticing this annoyed Olivia enough to return her to her senses.

"No, no, no. Listen: I'm an artist, I mean, I do art. She asked me to make a copy in clay." The older woman smiled and rolled her eyes.

"I see, so that's what it is. I swear, you kids these days. You think I'd expect things like this by now." She laughed as she turned to walk back to her desk.
While she was walking, for the first time in the three months she had started this class, Olivia noticed how plump her teacher's ass was.
After brushing that notion out of her mind, she idly wondered if she would have a body like that when she was older.

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In the art room, with her supplies all laid out, Olivia was in her zone. Her deft hands shaping the base that she would do the portrait on.
She'd maneuver the clay in one place until she was happy with the shape, spray it with water, and smooth it out. Rinse and repeat for the rest of it.

After the "frame" was done, she got up, washed her hands, and got the picture out of her bag. An embarassed grimace crept up on her.

Jeez, it's really...

She shook her head, and put a few of her books from her bag behind the photo to prop it up.

Can't think things like this while I'm working. Have to stay professional.

She sprayed her hands with the water, and with her little finger, traced the general outline of the girl's body. Pressing into the clay, as to make
the body shape more 3d. She picked up the thing, and made indents on the back to give it even more of a real form, replacing the clay she altered with new clay from the pile beside her.
She giggled a little as she did this to the other girl's breasts, but quickly became silent upon turning it back over. It was the girl's body, displayed before her.
Olivia cursed her own ability, while continuing to work.

Without details, it was the other girl's body. Jennifer? Yet, it wasn't. Being entirely featureless helped remove the connection in Olivia's mind, until the body was complete and she had to start working on the features.
Which, to be fair, she had been working on it a bit past perfection. One might say she was just playing with it, now.
Her own upper body radiating a blushing heat, Olivia was really happy she was the only one in the art room. She was aware, at that point, that she was only ignoring her arousal.

Okay. Hair, then features.

"Making" the hair is always tedious. It allows your mind to wander places you don't mean it to, while still being able to completely focus on the task at hand.
This was broken, of course, when she heard footsteps by the door, stop for a second, then move on. She imagined the person stopping to peek through the little window at the top of the door.
Even though her back faced it, she wondered if they would able to tell if she was aroused. In a moment of weakness, Olivia imagined the person to be Jennifer.

Okay, no. Gotta focus.

Hair was done, now the facial features. Well, maybe not. She'd decided instead to do the lingerie first. The lacy items of clothing turned out to be especially difficult, making it hard for her mind to wander.
The stockings, however, just made everything so much worse.

And then the facial features. Yeah, this was her now, no escaping it.

"Love, Jessica" And so she was done. She set it down on a kiln tray before going to wash her hands again. As she did, she noticed the sun was much lower than when she usually left.
Olivia dried her hands, then reached in her bag to get her phone. It was on silent, and had missed several calls and texts from her mother.

"Oh man, that's not good." She grumbled, turning the kiln on, and setting her finished product inside. She then grabbed her bag, and ran all the way home.

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Olivia's house wasn't too far away, luckily. She opened the front door, out of breath. The smell of rice, fish, and butter wafted to greet her.
Footsteps followed suit.

"Olivia!" Her mother ejaculated. Worrisome tones colored her voice. A wooden spatula with few grains of rice was in her hand, which was on her hips. An apron adorned over business casual attire.
Strawberry blonde hair pulled back into a messy ponytail. Anger was only an accent to her outfit, shown only by her stance.

Shame possessed Olivia. She was out of breath, but she had to say something.
"Sorry, Mom. I know you were worried." She blurted this all out quickly, then caught herself and slowed down. "I tried, tried to get home as soon as I could. My-My phone was on silent, because school."

Exasperated, Olivia's mother dropped the accent she carried, her hands falling to her sides.
"Why didn't you just call me?"

The girl grinned, saying: "Because I wouldn't have been home so soon. I haven't missed it, have I?"

Her mom rolled her eyes. "You did. I recorded it, though, so we can still watch it while we have dinner." She paused, then looked towards the kitchen. "Which, I'm going to finish making right now." She said, walking backwards brandishing her spatula.

"Okay! I'll be in my room, call me when it's ready!"

"You know I will!" Olivia could hear the reply while on the staircase heading up to her room.

Inside her sanctuary of sorts, she put her bag down by the door and closed it as she let go of the strap. Took off her shoes, and went to sit on her bed.

Her tired eyes gazed across from her into the full body mirror she had there. Her face still looked flushed. Olivia remembered what had happened before she came home.
While still looking, she stood up and compared her body to the one she had made earlier, courtesy of Jennifer.
The curves she herself had were much less pronounced. Her hands moved to outline herself. She had much more muted curves. There were distinct differences in that most of her body was petite, yet her shoulders and her ass were seemingly more developed than the rest of her.
She expressed distaste in that, until she slipped off her pants to change into pajama pants. She turned around, and flopped down on her bed to reach her dresser on the other side. Now holding the pants and pulling herself back, her head turned around before her body did.

A moment passed, her appreciating her own body. The hand that didn't hold the item of clothing fluidly came around to give what she had been looking at a nice firm smack.
Her lips curved into a shy smile as she rubbed the area that now provided her with a strange sort of stinging pleasure. Another moment of this, and she exhaled a sigh, hand slipping down between her legs.

'LIVIA, DINNER'S READY!" Her mother called from downstairs. Both hands combined a hurried effort to put on the pajama pants.

"BE RIGHT DOWN, MOM!" Her fingers tied a quick knot in the belt of her bottoms, and pulled it taut. She bounded down the stairs and plopped on the couch.
She grabbed the remote off the table and immediately went to set up the recorded items. Every night, Olivia and her mother, Helen, would watch episodes of their favorite tv show.
It was a much older show, so a different episode would be on every night, with new episodes premiering on Thursdays.

Helen came from the kitchen carrying two plates of food in her hands. Olivia smiled as she sipped the drink that had already thoughtfully been set on the table for her.
She took a hand off the glass to press the button on the remote to make their show start.

After dinner was finished, Olivia carried their plates to the dishwasher. She came back to kiss her mother goodnight, then went up to bed where she fell asleep almost immediately.
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In the morning, she stirred. It was much too hot in her room. Olivia peeled the covers off the upper part of her body, pulling them around her lower half.
She was in quite a state, not having relieved her sexual tension from the day before. She licked her lips as she used the blanket to apply soft pressure to the area that so desperately called out for attention.
Her mistake was that she thought she had time before she needed to get ready. Just as she started enjoying herself, her alarm went off.

She sighed, and lifted herself off the bed, her erection bobbing in her pajama pants as she did so.

Today was going to be a very long day.
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>> No. 829
And it was.
It was raining, and that was alright with me, because thinking about how shitty it was to walk in the rain to school distracted me plenty from other thoughts. Like how this morning, while eating breakfast, my mom walked into the dining room all gussy'd for work, wearing a particularly low cut top.
Don't get me wrong, seeing my mom in various states of...undress is abnormally normal, but today was somehow different.
In any case her outfit left a lot to the imagination, and that affected me in ways it would normally not.

Not like it matters. I mean, it's my mom. And, tits... Tits are nice all around. Can anybody resist looking at a nice pair?

God, the rain just makes everything so much colder. Even with several layers.
Although, I'm only wearing shorts and a pair of leggings. I should have worn pants, I know I should have worn pants.

And maybe taken an umbrella, but there wasn't any time. At least I have my boots. Pretty warm up to my shins, so that's nice. The only downside is that fucking clinking noise they make when I walk.
At least school isn't that far away... Ten minutes if I'm really feeling sluggish, which today I'm not.
Just disgruntled and horny.

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I arrive dripping wet. Hair mussed from wind and rain, boots squeaking on the cheap floors. Like the clinking wasn't enough.
A few of my lovely and not judgmental schoolmates let their eyes catch mine as they give me a one over, so I give 'em a good glare.

Their eyes now diverted, I'm off to the art room, where I turn off the kiln and examine my work. Not my best, but it'll do. I'll put it on a shelf above eye level, and cover it with some canvas just to be careful.
Now to take care of all this “wet” business. Not the kind I'd like to take care of, mind, but that is the unfortunate way today must be, I guess. In the bathroom, I'm feeling dumb for even giving a fuck, but sitting underneath the hand dryer brushing my hair somehow feels demeaning even when there's not another soul in sight.

Whatever. The heat feels really nice after being out in that cold rain, but I finish just as I started enjoying it. My hands press against the cool linoleum as I steady myself to stand up. boots still squeaking, I start towards the door. Quick stop by the mirror first, double checking my appearance. Let's see. Buttonup with camisole layered just fine. For now, since I'm not out in the rain, I'll put my big comfy sweater in my backpack and just throw my hoodie back on. The door opens abruptly, nearly knocking me back on the ground in pure shock.

A gaggle of girls had just come in, giggling and screaming and generally being all over each other. And I'm standing here, trying to look nonchalant while my arms snake frantically into my jacket.

Ten minutes until class, warns the alarm on my phone.

"Olivia!" I look up from my phone to see Jennifer beaming at me, slightly out of breath from laughter. "Hey, how's it going?" I swear, that smile of hers should be on lockdown somewhere. It's fairly effective as a temporary paralyzing agent.

"Oh, hey." Was my (almost) automatic response. I glanced around at her friends. It was strange, because they almost seemed frozen. They were definitely a lot more hushed than when they came in.
Jennifer was the one to break the awkward tension in the air.

“So,” She said, pausing to put her arm around me. “This is Olivia. She's the one making my present for Kevin.”

“Really? Are you done yet? Can we see it?” One of the girls, a tiny blonde, asked.

“The base is, I just have to paint it, now.” I turned my head to half-face Jennifer. “You told them about it?” I said, talking out of the side of my mouth.

“Well, duh. They're my best friends! I tell them, like(1), everything.” And, for some reason, I couldn't help but smile. My right hand reached up to pat my bun.

“I guess I can't really argue with that, although I think I'd rather reveal it when it's done.” Thinking about it in more than flashes started getting me all hot again. My, erm, lower organ started to swell, and I had to suppress the thought. I thought of clay. How cold it always feels whenever I start to touch it. I imagined my entire body being this cold. For some reason, this works for me. As it was subsiding, I adjusted my shorts.

“When is it going to be done?” Asked Melanie, another of the girls. I recognized her from the U.S. History course we shared. This was the first time she'd ever spoken to me, though.

“Probably tomorrow.” I shrugged and curiously watched as her eyes lit up, tapping Jennifer on the shoulder to whisper in her ear.

I had a nervous thought that she might have seen me twitch, but it didn't really matter much. Nothing I could do about it anyway. So I was quick to move on to other thoughts, like the fact that Melanie's very pretty. Pretty much all of Jennifer's friends are. She's bubbly, but in a starkly different way that Jennifer was. I want to say she's passionate. Aggressively inquisitive in class. Otherwise I'd say she's kind of quiet.

“Oh, that's a great idea!” Jennifer exclaimed. Melanie looked at me, lips curved upward in something like either a mischievous, or a knowing smile. Or both.
“Olivia, are you busy tomorrow after school?”

I shrugged again. “Not especially. It's a Friday.”

“You want to hang out at my house? We'll have like(2), a little unveiling party for Kevin's present. I mean, like(3), before I give it to him.” I've got to admit, I was pretty skeptical. What if she wanted me to do her even more of these weird little favors?

“Sure.” The idea of hanging out with other people on a Friday night beat out any cons I could have come up with. I don't know what it is, exactly, but I've never really had friends that I hung out with outside of school. Plenty of people I talked to during school hours, and I've gone to things like birthday parties and things before, but nobody had ever just asked me to “hang out.”

And then there was the idea that I may get to see her in similar clothing to the photograph she gave to me.

“Awesome! I'll just pop in at your last class tomorrow again and collect you before we go.” I sensed the conversation was coming to an end, and slowly inched towards the door.

“Cool, I'll probably see you around before then, but if I don't...” I gave a little salute before I made my exit.

“Bye, Olivia! I can't wait to see it finished!” Jennifer's voice called out after me.


In class, I couldn't focus. For some reason, the lazy sound of somebody that's been talking all day talking about the same thing they've been talking about all day kind of lulls the mind. And my mind kept coming back to the same thing, the same topic. I shouldn't even have to say it at this point.

And, yeah, I was hard. As a fucking brick. I had it pushed up in my belt, and it was very distracting, pressed up and throbbing against my stomach. The worst part about it was that it felt good. Whenever it twitched, it shifted slightly inside my tights. The material was soft, and pleasant.

The last period was especially frustrating, because that was the class I had that teacher. The one with the fantastic ass. In hindsight, I do feel a bit awkward doing that in her class, especially after what happened the previous day, but at the time I just wasn't thinking.

Each time she turned to write something on the blackboard, was a little blessing. She liked to write up higher on the board, but not being very tall made it so that she'd have to stretch to do so. Every time she did, her shirt rode up just ever so slightly, and I could glimpse the hint of her underwear just above her tight jeans.

Blue lace.

And her jeans, they clung to her skin just like I'd like to. The soft rounded shape of her ass drove me absolutely crazy.

By the end of the class, I had taken to attempting to achieve orgasm in class. Intentionally contracting my muscles to make it move rhythmically. My hands were in my lap, serving as sort of a barrier from anyone that might happen to glance in my direction. Unfortunately, that and my large hoodie were my only protection from that sort of situation, because at that point, my brain had turned into sex mush. I needed it, that pleasure, that release. All I could think about was the feeling. The feeling of my cock rubbing against smooth fabric. The feeling of my nipples standing at attention, pushing up against the inner lining of my bra.

But it didn't happen. I simply couldn't with such limited stimulation. Frustrated and slightly sticky from precum, I left the room with a binder in front of my pants to the art room where I painted the shit out of that portrait.

Somehow, instead of hindering me, being as horny as I was helped immensely. The focus I achieved while painting each little detail of Jessica's sexy body was incredible. Sure, I was really turned on, but for some reason it wasn't distracting. So, I got that done and glazed and put back in the kiln.


After the slightly awkward shufflewalk home, I didn't care anymore. I threw open the door, and shut it just as quickly as it had opened. I ran upstairs to my room and couldn't get my shorts off fast enough. Open air never felt so good. My hand was on my dick before I even sat down on my bed, my other hand holding my tights to the tops of my thighs.

So much time I had spent, pent up. Even before I pulled my tights off, you could have said I was soaked. Precum gushed from me, making little slick sounds every time I moved my hand either up or down. A sticky symphony perfectly in tune with my ragged breathing, occasionally accompanied by a moan I never meant to let slip.

And it was paying off. Each stroke brought me closer and closer to release. I could feel it building, like a knot inside me tightening further with each second. I was greedy, but I wanted more. So, I stopped before the point of no return. It took some effort and a lot of willpower to pull away from myself, but I did. In that moment, I panted. My hands went to pull off my shirt, then my bra. I started teasing myself, slowly circling my nipples with my fingertips. One of my hands left to visit my mouth, delving two fingers in between my plump lips. My tongue greeted them inside, imitating a snake. If it had been longer, my tongue would have coiled against the two, but it wasn't, so it just got them very, very wet.

That hand went back down to my nipple, the other hand mimicked the first.

And then, I couldn't help it. I inched back down to what called out for attention the most. It didn't take long to pick up back where I left off. My eyes, glazed over with lust rolled around the room. My mouth, open enough to allow the passage of sharp breaths growing sharper and more frequent in and out.

That's when it happened. My eyes somehow connected with another pair at the peak of my pleasure. It didn't register right away, being in that moment of nonthinking nothing, and it was only for a second, as they rolled up inside my head involuntarily from the sheer force of what I was experiencing. Thick fluid exploded from within me, frosting the tops of my tights. A stark contrast, the white against the black nylon. And it kept going, coating my hands, and my stomach. The underside of my left tit.

A sigh rattled from my lips, my legs shook. My eyes came back into use, and tried to confirm what they had seen before. The eyes weren't there, but the door was definitely open a crack.

Well, shit. My mom had caught me masturbating.
>> No. 830
The hell is going on here
>> No. 831
Great! Now I want to jerk off a highschool girl. Thanks lola!
>> No. 844
i'm debating on whether or not i should even continue this.

what do you guys think?
>> No. 845
>>844
If you don't write some more on this, deffo write something for us to see.
>> No. 903
Can I just jump in here and say I really hope you continue this? I know it's been a couple months, but I just found it, and I have to say this one one of the best stories I've read in a while.
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I never could have expected this.

Not last week, not last year, not five years ago, certainly not when she was born.

There's not a single part of me that wants to admit how I felt seeing my own daughter like that.

Yet I can't deny it. Is it narcissism? The nature of the situation? Am I just a terrible person...?

I can say that it certainly wasn't on purpose. I didn't want to, not at all, merely attempting to play the part of a caring mother. No, not playing the part, I was a caring mother. Am a caring mother.

Usually Olivia comes through the front door with a hello, to see if I'm here. Sometimes we chat, I ask her what she did at school, or what she wants for dinner. Typical parent-child conversation. Child, she's a child. I'm the parent.

I made pineapple cupcakes that day. Work was really slow that day, but I ended up getting out earlier than I expected to. So, I went to the grocery store on my way home, made cupcakes after everything else was put away.

Olivia came home while I icing them, just after letting them cool down long enough. Coconut frosting.

So, what was I doing peeping? I was just trying to bring her one of the cupcakes I made. No shame in that. But there is now. I still haven't eaten any myself.

That night was quiet, neither of us able to address the issue. We hardly said anything at all to each other. She seemed to be in a good mood the next morning, however. She was all dressed up, too. I've only seen her wear make up a few times in her life, most of them when she was coerced to, but she didn't do a bad job of it.
It feels bad even just saying that.

But she told me she's going to a friend's house after school, which is also a rare occurrence. Part of me worries she's avoiding me, but I know it's not the case, not with how happy she was over breakfast.



Work has been tough, but the day's almost over. Three times now I've caught myself with my head in my hands.
I can't stop thinking about it.
Never before have I had such mixed feelings about something.
She's my daughter, but I felt-
I felt something I haven't since her father left.

I want to think that it was just maternal pride.
But I don't know.

Driving home was a blur, nothing seems important today.
Any interaction that I had to have was just being on auto-pilot.

I get home and immediately go to lie down on my bed but it doesn't help. Nothing does.
Maybe if I know for sure I won't feel like this anymore. I want to continue to be me, to be a great mom.

I'm not proud to admit this, but I wanted to know.
So I went into her room.
Into her closet.
Her hamper.

I found the stockings she was wearing the night before.
The body fluids on them had dried clear, and they weren't pungent.
I stood holding them in my hands, relieved. They were just a pair of stockings that my silly little girl had made a mess of.
My guard was down. I let out a sigh.

And I heard the front door open.

"Hey Mom? Are you here?" Her call reverberated throughout this thin walled house.

Panic rising within me, I resisted the urge to respond.
Instead, I hid in her closet, shoving the soiled stockings deep down into her hamper.
The door almost closed silently, just as I heard her step into her own room.

She was out of breath, seems like she ran home after school; It dawned on me that I had no inkling of what time it was.
"Can't believe I forgot this." A voice, a ruffling sound, footsteps, doors closing.

I didn't dare come out until I heard the front door close again, and even then I waited a minute.
As I hurried to my room, I noticed I was experiencing more resistance walking than usual.
And that's when it hit me:
I was hard.


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