That's.... still really bad. I would talk to somebody professional about this, because you're literally planning how you're going to do it. That's a really fucking bad sign, please go get help.

I'd be reflecting on what sorts of thoughts are causing you to entertain suicidal ideas... Are you truly just thinking about it hypothetically, or are there things going on in your life causing you to think about ending it all?

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I spend an inordinate amount of time worrying about the future, so it might be related to that. The idea of failing at a long-term goal is really disheartening and in such a situation I might see death as a preferable alternative to life as a failure.

Road to a high rever of understanding is through suicide aswell.

This is Lesswrong level stuff.

This was so

unexpected :3 sometimes things just fit

snugly into place

Was just about to

fap, brush teeth and sleep.

Reinterpret tiredness!

Not OP but I do entertain the same thoughts on suicide.

It's more of a peaceful acceptance than a raging momentary upset. I've lived a hard life and while it's not particularly bad at the moment I just don't see myself enjoying the future. I don't want children or have them. I don't even want a girlfriend becoming more asexual as I age. My parents are gone and I was an only child.

I've been to war, jail, stripclubs, churches, college twice. I've done my service and seen the sights, I have no one to take care of and a few friends that will miss me but I just want to rest... Is that a bad thing?