This last year in summary...not a baw fest I just wanna share it.
>hooked up with a hot blonde cocaine snorting milfy bout year ago. Was kinda a silent agreement that she'd do everything for me if I just allowed her bullshit. Her parents had died, large inheritance, every weekend blowing it on blow and parties for reprobates. Was letting her demons run amoke, mad issues.
She was nice to me and bought me a drum kit. I eventually told her I couldnt handle her coke addiction, really cause I could see where she was going with it and I cared. Things got rough. Had some dream that her ex boyfriends where warning me about her. One had died whilst going out with her and appeared as a wraith like shadow. Any way that was that.
>Met a girl I liked, kept coming over to score weed. All went wrong when I tried to kiss her.
>Spent most of the rest of the year playing gta and gambling on the stock market...Ive lost over grand in the lat 6months, gain gain, lose lose lose.
>My uncle dies in a sudden accident
>Need more work, bills to pay like fuck, got into gambling and ended up worse off.

Im 32, 33 this week. Id like to say life gets better but its always the same, up and down relentless bullshit rollercoaster.
Sometimes high, excited and free, then broke lonely and trapped.
Anyway, how you been, pour it all out here.