Welcome home. I was having lots of sad thought about a week ago, in which I pondered suicide while feeling like a completely worthless individual. So far though I have always found a reason to hold it out longer, because there are things that I would miss too much in death. Things that I enjoy, little bright moments which have enough strength to battle the dark ones that seem overwhelming at times.

  >You ever feel like killing yourselves?
Pretty much every other day and I have no friends either.
Besides alcohol.

>>73548

Weird I meant to link.
Giles Corey - I'm going to do it
Because that song fit perfectly with this thread, oh well.

>>73548

Oh, it did go through

clearly ive drank too much to post here.

posting cute anime girls in unrelated threads on imageboards is the only reason I keep living

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forgot to remove the token, but it works pretty well for that post

>>73551

Funny, one of the main things that keep me living is saving those cute anime pictures people post.

Come to 99con and you can smoke blunts with us, it will make you feel better.

I have a better idea

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Sometimes I think about killing myself, too. I just feel very inadequate and like my existence bring shame to our species. Sometimes I feel like a monster even though I know I'm no worse than the majority of others.

Mildly amusing or pleasing pictures will one day be the new currency. People will be judged and given status and prosperity based on how much amusement they can give to others. It will be a dystopia of meta humour and self-referential humor.

>>73563
This would end horribly. Look at the top posts on reddit or the crap people post on facebook. Sir, are you suggesting that people who post unfunny advice dog memes ought to prosper?

>>73564
>should prosper

>dystopia

>>73549
Get the fuck outta here tea-boy.

>>73561
That guy just LIVES to pour milk on himself.

>>73574
you mean you don't?

pouring milk on yourself is a very uplifting activity every depressed person ought to engage in.

Been mauling it over in my head. I'm 24 I'm transgender and I fucked up my schooling. I flunked my last semester and now owe 6000 I don't have because I have a dead end food job. Everyday I walk around feeling like a freak, I'm disgusted by myself and having no career aspects. Given my situation the only thing keeping me alive is weed and random sex with strangers. I fuck strangers in the hopes one will murder me, I also wish daily for a terminal illness.

My friends are all starting to go there separate ways, some have kids But for the most part they all have relationships or something besides friends. I feel like I missed my one opportunity with school and the transgender thing on top of that only makes things worse. The worlds going to shit anyway I just feel like there is no reason to keep going.

Why live to do the same dead end activity for the foreseeable future, alone as a freak? I've been researching ways to do it quickly and painlessly. I'm probably going to buy a tank of carbon monoxide and let myself go in my sleep but I've also considered hanging.

I just don't want to upset my mother. Thats one of the big reasons I haven't killed myself yet. I just get the image in my head of breaking down and crying uncontrollably. She worries about me a lot and her life is finally stable, I feel like I'd be taking that stability from her but I don't know how much longer I can keep doing this day in and day out.

I find it funny more people don't kill themselves whats the point of doing menial task work until you die? I hope a nuclear war happens and wipes most of humanity away,, a fresh start. Life as we know it to me feels like its gone down an unnatural path, I get the feeling a lot of are depressed.

>>73643
You sound familiar. Did you ever go on 99chan's IRC?

>>73645
It sounds familiar because it's the life story of basically every other "transgender" person in existence. Almost without exception, by their 30s or 40s they realize they're just an ugly dude with fake tits and a mutilated d and end up killing themselves.

>>73648

Why are you such a vile, hateful person? I don't get what would drive someone to be that big of a prick.

>>73650
My mommy didn't love me enough.

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>>73650
It sounds like you're using ad hominem attacks to tone police >>73648 because you don't have any real response.

>>73652

It sounds like you're tone policing me by saying I can't tell someone who's egging on a suicidal person a prick.

Call. Tell. Who gives a fuck? You know what I mean.

>>73658
"Tone police policing tone police" is the new "trolls trolling trolls."

Just once. I was sitting on the bed wondering why I even existed. It was a low point and I haven't been back since.

https://www.ted.com/talks/hannah_fry_the_mathematics_of_love?language=en

I had suicide thoughts for the first time in months while watching this. All this talk of choices. Panic disorder is not a choice. I'd like to be in control of my life.

>>73671
What about that gave you a panic attack?

What causes you to have panic attacks? Maybe medication or recreational drugs could help you out.

>>73672

I'm on recreational drugs as we speak.

>>73674
Do they help?

>>73674
You should probably just go see a psychiatrist, they could recommend legal stuff to help you relax.

>>73677

But daddy said not to go on legal meds because they take your boners away.

>>73678
my daddy taught me a few things too, like how not to rip the skin by using someone else's mouth

>>73683
Can you show me?

>>73688
I'd be right happy to.

>>73643
Don't be a fool.

You can become an electrician after attending a 6 month trade school. You'll make $50k a year changing lightbulbs for incompetent yuppie fucks. In 10 years or so of experience you can become a master electrician and make upwards of $100k. Just show aptitude while you're in school and your instructors/the school will place you in a job.

I have a cousin that did 10 years in prison and he was in his mid 30s when he got out, he went into a trade and now has a wife and a few kids living as best as he can. There are people in all sorts of situations trying to get their shit together however they can dude, you just need to keep fighting and you'll eventually find your way in life.

I wish you the best, but you sound more fucked up than I am. Know that as long as you have all your limbs and functioning sensory organs there is hope for you yet.

I got a girlfriend

It didn't cure my clinical depression.

Who would've thunk?

>>73793
For most people, clinical depression isn't a thing that can be cured, but it can be effectively treated and managed.

I find that "having a bitch around your penis" therapy is an effective part of a treatment regimen and (if you find the right bitch to put around your penis for the long term) can give you something to hope for in the future.