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No. 1539
A routine will help you, and making an effort to be out of the house as much as possible will help. I'm sure you have a routine, but doing things to get out would be amazing; it really helped me to leave my household and just spend as much time as possible outside, although it can cost money, there are plenty of things you can do. I'm not sure about where you live but I'm assuming that there must be, say a cafe nearby, where you can use the wifi and be productive. I might be wrong about the availability but the general idea is GET OUT AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE. But it can become fuel, because clearly any attempt you make to avoid this situation is received as a threat, then again your priority is to get away as much as possible.
Also, network the fuck out of this. Moving out is your priority, and there are most likely ways that you can get to this faster. If you can lose yourself in getting out, it might help you pass the time. Contact people and generally try to make an easier route towards leaving the house, more quickly. Try everything, if you could find a spare room in a house, try explaining that you absolutely HAVE to leave. Could you afford a hostel for a month, or two? My suggestions are probably impractical and boring, but the aim is here to think "Is there a way to get out quicker?", because I know you can do it.
I don't know what your financial situation is, but if you could arrive at your target city with a bare minimum amount of money I would wager that this is better than waiting two months and then turning up with more money. Why? Because once you get there, you will be away from this, and if you HAVE to make it work, if you NEED a job ASAP, you'll find one. Money will work itself out, money is not your priority. I hope this doesn't annoy you, but I think you need to be creative about solving this problem- if you move out right now, then you don't have to worry about surviving. In fact, you can spend the time and energy that you currently spend on coping with this on something else- like taking care of yourself and finding things to do. I daresay you'd be a lot more energetic.
I'm being idealistic here, quite heavily. I understand that you might find it naive, but the idea behind it is this; when we're stressed, our creativity about problem solving is narrowed. I haven't read anything about you considering moving out earlier; the idea was to try and throw some ideas around and maybe trigger the notion that you could avoid having to survive this.
You have the Internet, and this is something amazing that can turn your situation around. Couchsurfing is a website that you might be able to use to organize some temporary accommodation, you could contact users and arrange to stay (obviously this depends whether people in your target location actually use the website). Try everything you possibly can.
My last point would be, don't be afraid about talking about this. Things are incredibly difficult for you; and telling people about your situation, not the whole story, but a general reason for your predicament ("I'm having a hard time at home and I need to get out as soon as possible" might be right) because people can be very generous, very understanding, and very helpful.
I hope this has helped you, and I think you're doing an absolutely amazing job, things are going to work out, and you can do this. I'm happy to respond if you have any questions or problems with what I've said. People are going to work against you here and tell you not to do what you want to do; don't listen to them.
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