That's not a short question at all. I mean yeah, few words alright, but "What is the origin of life" is also short in words.

Do you have any friends?

>>1449
The question itself is short.

I do have friends. I do in fact have a very good friend of 8 years. He lost his mother one year before mine passed. We're similar, but he's really... timid? He doesn't seem to "want" anything, he just goes with things. He doesn't seem happy or unhappy either.

I'm sort of happy when I'm with him, but it doesn't seem to translate into lasting happiness. I'm going to hang out with him more right now though, see if that does me some good. I still think I need to do something more...

OP I was in a similar situation to you for some years. I became convinced that a relationship would make me happy. While healthy relationships are enriching experiences, I don't think they should be the deciding factor when it comes to your happiness. Take some time to reflect upon what else makes you happy and what is important to you. Once you have stopped worrying about being in a relationship, you can start focusing on the aspects of life that make you happy.

Here are a handful of random thoughts:

View everything from a positive angle. If you think sad, you'll be sad. Diagnosed with ADD? Thank god, you can finally get proper treatment.

Appreciate other people. Be friendly, be supportive, throw out compliments. This is an investment that really pays off when it comes back around.

Don't focus on how other people are better than you--focus on how you can make yourself better.

Lastly, if feelings of loneliness and depression continue, consider seeing somebody about it.

You seem pretty eager to get into a relationship, but finding a good partner takes time, I wouldn't rush things. Maybe try hitting up /docta/

>>1452
Is getting into a relationship something I should do, then? And I think /docta/ is about relationships that exist, not how to get into one.

>>1451
I've been to doctors, I have stopped taking SSRIs, but I'm still anxious, and they don't seem to want to touch on that. I have a really hard time talking to people in clubs, it really takes a lot from me. It feels like they're not open or at all nice. In general, I'm pretty nervous, but I try hard anyway, and there have been some improvements, but the feelings are still there.

So, I guess, how do I find someone? Anyone, really, but I wish I could find a person to stay with for a longer time.

>>1462
Relationships tend to work in reverse in a lot of ways. You know the whole "opposites attract" thing? You'll be able to find a relationship much easier if you give up on it for now (assume it to be inevitable,) and focus on doing things to fulfill yourself right now. Check out the Blueprint Decoded by Real Social Dynamics for info on relationships and making deep identity level changes.

I don't mean just going back to school.
Go do everything you thought you couldn't.
Everything that'll earn you a bit of satisfaction.

You'll end up in a much higher quality relationship, that may even last longer, if you've attracted someone who's of similar mind. I get the feeling two happier people would work better than two needy types.

You need a healthy relationship with yourself before you can have a healthy relationship with anybody else. Work on you and the rest will come when you are ready. If you desperatly think that you're ready and focus on how ready you are you will not make progress towards what you want but instead develop an attitude of self loathing and entitlement which will leave you baffled because you have already convinced yourself you're prime material for relationships and the problem is with everyone else.

Yeah, don't try to make yourself happy through relationships. You will only make everything worse for you. Sure, it sucks now, but spending the time alone to find your own happiness, to work on goals, etc., will make it easier for you later to find a real, meaningful relationship. But you're young and you shouldn't be looking for real, meaningful relationships yet, because you don't understand them. You've admitted to not even understanding yourself.

Find hobbies, go to school (or not, which is also), and discover things you like that don't rely on others. You won't listen to any of this or the similar things everyone else is saying, but maybe you will. I wouldn't have listened to this 10 years ago in my early 20s.

you can only be happy by being helpful

do some volunteering and donate money to meaningfull projects

you should also join the Catholic Church

>>1562 Heed this man, for he speaks wisdom.

Trying to complete yourself with relationships is as empty and meaningless as buying the new GTA game...fun, absorbing, but essentially meaningless in and of itself.

The old Greek dude said "Know thyself." I paraphrase him now; "Love thyself.", and, no, I am not recommending that you buy a massive dildo collection or spend all your time fapping. But it seems to me that you do need to learn to love and respect yourself. Once you are able to reach that level, you will not have a junkie's craving for relationships and the approval of other people...and you may find that these things fall into your lap of their own accord. Hell; taken to a high enough level, you might become so enlightened as to become a new Buddha!