This is probably a bad idea, but uh...

I broke up with my girlfriend recently. Friday before last, in fact.

I did it because I felt like I needed space typical, eh? and also because I felt a bit restricted in our relationship. I've been going out with her for about 3 years or so, she was my first serious girlfriend and also my ... first. Understandably, I've changed a bit in the last 3 years. Finished my $GENERIC_EDUCATION and got a job, started hanging out with different friends, etcetera.

She didn't like the way I changed. She thinks I smoke weed too much and that I'm generally irresponsible and immature.

I feel like I want to go out and explore life as a teenager while I still can, 9 months left but I also don't want to lose what we have together.

I love her, she's crazy, she's a gamer and we have many shared interests and make each other laugh without effort. But on the other hand, there's a lot of contrast as well.

I'm not sure what I'm asking here, but I guess it's just for advice on where I can go from here.